So a blog about how i’m feeling
Not done one of these in a while.
Negativity - Negativity is not “bad”. In fact, it’s not anything. It is the opposite of “something” – the Truth. Truth exists; negativity (or untruth) doesn’t, except to the extent that Light is blocked and/or absorbed
Too deep for this time in the morning but that is my outlook right now. Negative.
Ever looked and thought about a word so much that you start to think what is that word - does it actually even make sence?
I start a new job on monday and i’ve heard bad things about it therefor i that has given me a negative outlook towards it. I know the best way to go about anything is to go about it openly with no high or low expectations therefore there is no let down what so ever.
Many things are a let down to me right now. I’m letting close friends get further and further away and that leads to me feeling abit lost. My time is either spent at home in my room or talking to my mother or at a certain somebodys house or at work. Feels like i am doing absolutely shit all with myself and getting no where.
I guess everyone goes through crappy stages but the fact is i am not actually going through one of these i just think i am.
Its late and writing gets me over thinking meanings and feelings, what an odd person i am!
I also cut my hand on some scissors when i was getting in bed - why oh why did i leave scissors on my bed? Silly silly girl.
Anyway cig, 4od, curl up in bed and hopefully drift off and repeat everything tomorrow - if anyone is reading this and you have my number drop me a text no doubt i will be lying awake for a good hour or so no matter how tired i am! Stupid red bull.
